My coworker sent this to me, and I haven't watched all of it, but from what I did see it was powerful. Thought I'd share with the rundown fam. I hope the embed code works.

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since the embed isnt working here's a link to the vid.. http://vimeo.com/3658572

Is it because she's your ride or die chick, best friend or is it something else all together. This is a multilayered question. I wanna know what makes a man fall in love? and better yet WHEN does a man fall in love? I'm not talking about no Soulja Boy tell'em "Kiss me thru the phone" love, but some old school Al Green "Let's Stay Together" type of sh!t. Why does it seem like its so hard and takes so long for yall to fall- and don't give me none of that "its in our dna- blah blah" crap. I'm sure most of the ladies will agree its easy to get your body- at least sexually, but we seem to fall short when it comes to getting the most important part-your heart. Ladies why is it we are able to give of ourselves more freely (again none of that dna yada yada) and not seperate the two (body and soul) like men can?  Just wondering...

Moni-F-Baby (as Slim calls me)

You released me to fly on my "Pretty Wings"

Without untying your string

So i fall

Earthbound

In a spiral dive picking up speed

It wont be long now

I don't fight it I welcome the end

There is no pain

I am weightless and free

This journey is at an finish

Until another catches me

Now wait ladies before yall get all riled up.. i just wanted to get the guys take on the subject, and yours too of course...So fellas? What say you? This is a serious question.. considering that you came into this world from a woman, and may have sisters, aunts, grandmothers, daughters and some lesbian friends. If you are with a woman and you are supposed to love her-have you just out of the blue referred to her by that name. Like just flat out was like hey whore- jokingly or otherwise- and no not during foreplay/sex session for u freaky deakys out there lol. Would that ever be a "term of endearment" or can you EVER mean that in a joking way (even if yall play around calling each other buttheads and whatnots. Now mind you there was no argument that lefad to the "pet name"- you just said it in a greeting, like wassup (insert whore here). Just wondering- love to hear some feedback- aight dueces!

And it continues.. sorry was out of town last week folks but i'm back and since i did the men last time i thought i'd hit yall with the women!

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Til next Sunday! Enjoy!

Duece took me back with Link (I really want to sex your body) so i decided to post some of my fav 90's slow jams.. enjoy!

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Ok so all the embedding was disabled for the real dru hill viedo so i put a live version up instead..

She never told me she was a virgin though thats no excuse for my behavior

I never knew she was at risk but every since that neighbor

Came over for some "sugar" never expecting what transpired

That my life and another's would soon expire

It was this passionate encounter that sealed both our fates,

DAMN shouldve worn that condom but it was already to late

I was deep into the moment back and forth penetrating

What the hell am I doing in my mind i was debating

Not so much the person but the soul i was attracted,

The twist of the hips is what had me distracted

So to the virgin i'm sorry for not resisting my own temptation

But now to myself my sexuality i was contemplating

So to prove to my manhood my thinking untrue

No homo in me I used you boo

In the back of my mind I knew it was wrong

Had you caught in my web of lies before too long

This secret i kept from both family and friends

Those fucking temptations is how it now ends.

**disclaimer this poem was written by me some time ago and NO it is not about me but i got inspired after hearing a speaker (Rae Lewis-Thornton) at my high school talk about her struggle.. and decided to post after some real talk we had last night in the chat room, so here it goes hope you likey. comments feedback appreciated. Thanks - 2 fingers 2 da side

I'm a 20 year old woman who's dying of AIDS, and now I'm about ot tell you the story of my pain

I was an 18 year old virgin i held my head up high

But avoiding temptations was hardest of all

I couldn't deny.

As i walked the hallways and listened to the lines

One voice rang out like a bell his words still fresh in my mind

The thought of his touch made my body tingle his smile made my heart sing

But what i didnt realize on his mind was just one thing

He asked me out for next saturday night

I was so anxious to be with him I said yes with delight.

He took me to a drive-in and as we sat in his car

We weren't there to watch the movie but he tried to go to far

I said stop get off me this isnt the right time

He called me names said i was teasing him, playing with his mind

Eventually i gave in, told him the answer was yes

He took me to a hotel room, locked the door and i'm sure you know the rest

Now i'm a 20 year old woman dying of AIDS

Don't grieve for my life but feel my pain

Because he didn't put a gun to my head, force me or even twist my wrist

It was just temptation I could not resist.

- Moni

That is a day that i will never forget as long as i live. Three days before father's day, payday and the day my child lost her father and i lost my lover and best friend. I can remember exactly what i was doing at the time. It was about 7ish here in Los Angeles. Time to get up and get dressed and go to work. Then the phone ring- i almost wish i hadn't picked up, but would that have made the situation not be real? No. I sometimes still ask God for a do over. The caller id said "mom" and i answered because my daughter was in chicago with my mom. "Hello? Is jazzy ok?" were the first words out of mouth not knowing what i would hear next would make me think of suicide for the first time in my (then 26 years) of life. So let's rewind to the week before, I had now been in LA for about 2 months now (moved out here in April), work was going well, Jazzy was staying with her dad, me and him talked all the time- he was making plans to come out here as soon as i got settled- life was good. When he (his name is Corey) called me saying he had been having problems at work it didn't surprise me, he was a manager and he always had to do the "dirty work" upper management couldn't or wouldn't handle.

He called me one time saying there was a girl, one of the servers giving him problems, calling in sick, not showing up for her shift, and she would have to be handled. I knew what that meant- he was about to fire somebody or write them up- i told him to take it easy, but thats just the kind of manager he was- no bullshit, no nonsense. Then we had a conversation one day were he told me the same chick that he had fired was bugging out, saying she was gonna get someone to hurt him-which he laughed off because he did MMA(mixed martial arts), he even threatened her back with MY presence- like my girl will come up her and handle your ass or something to that effect. Little did i know this whole situation would turn out to be a life changing experience. The 14th i was having a bad day at work so i called him knowing he was the one person who would make me feel better. He told me it would be ok he'd be out here soon, and jazzy was doing ok and that he loved me, i told him i love him too. those were the last words ever spoken between us two. Later on that night her plan to "hurt him" went into motion. 

Im still til this day cloudy on the specifics but what i know is that there was a break in-staged to cover up what really happened. Three cousins of this fired worker entered the back of the store, one with a gun which i'm sure corey probably didn't see because i don't think he would have tried to fight them, then again knowing Corey he still would have.They rushed in under the pretense that they were robbing the place and i'm guessing corey tried to stop them, they probably tried to intimidate him and he more than likely swung on one or 2 of them. Not expecting this i'm guessing the one with the gun might have warned corey to back off and most likely he laughed at them, probably taunting them, not believing he was going to shoot him. How wrong he was. One shot in the chest and back later,my best friend was gone. Jazzy no longer had a father. The person i thought i was going to spend the rest of my life with was no more. 

This was the news i recieved the next morning, when that came from the other side of that phone all i could do was drop it and slunch down to the floor. My roomate at the time asked what was wrong but my mouth had stopped working.. i felt like someone had dropped an anchor in my lap and i could no longer move. All i wanted was to be numb... he was the person i shared my deepest thoughts with, we got tattoed together, we played video games together, watched wrestling. After that i couldn't do most of those things anymore. My playstation two collected dust on the floor for almost a year, no tattoo seemed interesting enough, my favorite wrestlers came and went, for lack of better term i was in an emotional coma. I remember we once got in an argument and I tried to push him out of my life, his response was he wasn't going no where and he'd always be here. I guess some promises should never be made.    

sparkling eyes

a smile so sweet

from the root of your hair

right down to your  feet

from high in the heavens

straight past the clouds

an angel descended

without a doubt

i'll make you happy

give you all that you please

step back from the mirror

my soulmate is me